Well, life as we know is changed forever.
Now I'm constantly worrying that because I'm in a new schooling environment surrounded by new identities and folk I'll inevitably change. Most likely for the worst too. I can't shake the feeling that I will never ever enjoy the same comfort and joy I had with 4E1-ers, where I know everyone, everyone knows me and my habits, so I can just freak out as and where. And it's safe cause there'll be people behind, albeit 50 feet away and not always watching or listening, but they'll catch on. At least if I fall, they sure as heck won't CATCH me, but they're quick enough to ring up an ambulance so I won't DIE!
Yuqi I can count on to talk/shout to about movie related news, Jessie's just there for much needed company and amusement, Amanda and Naimah are there for delirious female conversations and understanding, Carol and Praise provide laughter for me to laugh AT, and the boys in 4E1 give fine demonstrations of unintentional comedy. Jia Ying and Yamunna keep me company during recess, Simin is there to balance my crazy pessimistic freak outs and movie gushing with positive energy and music. And the other girls help keep testosterone levels kinda low. Up till she upped and left Erin gave me a sparring partner in cynical, jaundiced rantings of the world. Jenn and Reb and practically everyone else are there to shove me off my fat, lazy ass in PE. Not very successful people, but at least you tried.
Okay it's official, I miss you guys.
I don't want to change! I'm extremely contented with where I am spritually when I was 16, and having found that stability with my life, I'm just worried everthing's gonna be upset again. You know how I react to change. Violently.
All I'm saying is, I want to build on this better person I have found that you guys helped create, rather than lose it and build a new one. So it would be freking nice if you guys invited me along to stuff. HINT HINT Yuqi!

Da_movie_kid was shot at 3:21 PM