This past week has been nothing but sheer frustration.

It started with the weekly movie screenings by Sgnewwave, a club of film fans in Ngee ann. They were screening a wonderfully gritty movie known as Fight club. Now, previous screenings have attracted measly amounts of students, despite pedigrees like Saving Private Ryan and Raising Arizona. Fight club on the other hand, saw the every last seat in the theater being assigned to one human buttock. Sure I should be thrilled so many people have taken an interest, but how many for the wrong reasons? Try as I might, I could not shake the nagging feeling of being surrounded by half brained movie nitwits, drawn to the movie because of the handsome leading man rather than the movie's themes and story. Having a name like Fight club, many came looking for a cheap thrill of watching Pitt dishing out knuckle sandwiches. I don't know if they thought the movie would consist of Mr. Jolie's usual charming pearly smile, but I sure enjoyed watching the many "posers" wince and squeal at the brutality and the weight of the film. Eat that you fuckers.

Events on Tuesday would again send my blood pressure rocketing skywards. I end school at 11, but was expected to wait till 3 for some bloody marketing Communications(one subject I loathe with every ounce of my being) meeting. We had arranged it at such a convenient time slot because one member of our team ran on a whole nother schedule. Okay. Let's just hang out in the library. When the time came, I smsed my team members so we could get together. Turns out one of them skipped school and the other, the one we so happily stayed back for, gave the excuse she was not in school and she wasn't aware of the meeting.
WHAT?! You arranged the bloody timeslot!
So once again the meeting's postponed to yet another afternoon, which means, all of us would have to sacrifice a few more hours of our time to discuss something we should have completed by now! It's just TFU. It's so much easier to just work alone. I'm starting to think human relationships aren't worth the effort. Life would be so much less...COMPLICATED and painful if you just lived alone on some spit of land with enough resources for you. Heck interaction with Homo sapiens is hard enough for me already okay?! It'd help a little more if you guys actually gave some sign. Tell me to shut up! Punch me! Just let me know you're still listening ad not wasting my and everyone else's FUCKING time.
Today was lecture day, so naturally it wasn't gonna be butter. That I can deal with. Until I get into a lecture of Marketing communications with no source of distraction. It's fortunate brains don't come with eject buttons. It took all my willpower not to bolt from the theatre shrieking "I don't want to take this subject in the first place! I don't care if I pass!" Well the last bit's not quite true. If it really were the case I would have done just that. It's frustrating. You sort of feel your potential fading with every redundant module you have to sit through.
I don't know. I'm starting to wonder if more talented people would come through if we weren't submitted to the effects of education. It may help to distinguish stupid from smart. We'd get to focus on whatever we wanted to, without being told a new approach was unacceptable.
Maybe I should really go nuts. Barrel through my work without regard for rules or human relationships, blissfully unaware of the chaos in my wake. Fail? Fine. Death threats? Fine. Expelled? Fine. Bankrupt? Fine. Jail time? Fine. It may never even go that far. For all I know it could be successful.
But having been pegged as a "psycho-killer" before by some quiz....Who knows what might happen without rules. Maybe when I finally hit bottom.

Da_movie_kid was shot at 7:40 PM